Monday, July 25, 2011

Here's Where the Story Ends

Yesterday, the very reason this blog was conceived told me that she - and I quote - "needed her privacy" (ahem) - while using the bathroom.

Her younger sister - the "baby" is pulling herself up to stand at nine months and crawled at seven.

Life with two young children, a thriving business, a solid marriage, frequent jaunts into the mountains and a sputtering-but-still-alive yoga practice has a decidedly chaotic hum to it. A much different hum from when I started writing here after suffering miscarriages and wanting so desperately to start a family.

I've meant to start another blog but haven't found the time and inclination. I still may concoct something and, if so, will post the link here in case any one of my former blog friends stumbles upon it and cares to see what we're up to.

Until then, it is time to close this chapter.

In closing I want to let all those who I connected with on this journey - in this medium - how much that connection meant to me. How grateful I was and am to have it in my life. I think about many of you on a daily basis.

I once counseled a friend who was trying to conceive that she had to believe she would be a mother one day. How everyone I knew - and there were many of you! - who was struggled is now a mother.

But how hard that was for me to do. I believed the worst would come from my failure to hold on to a pregnancy. And now only the best has come - well, mostly the best. (I will try to remind myself of that the next time both girls are going off simultaneously.)

Those were some hard lessons learned. But I truly believe that those very lessons of belief, trust and patience - mostly the patience! - are helping me in my journey to become the mother I want to be for my two lively girls.

Speaking of, to close is the photo of Missy (Piper) at 3 and Sissy (Sammie) at 8 months on Independence Day 2011.

Many happy days to each of you. All my love and support to you on your momma-hood journey.


Ms. Planner


zsmom said...

Oh Ms. Planner.

That brought tears to my eyes -- because I think of you often -- you cross my mind from time to time -- funny, isn't it -- we who've only connected through the computer.

I know I've been feeling somewhat the same about my blog -- but I hope you'll tune in there once or twice -- I'm going to propose a project where even if I go offline -- those who wish to connect, via old fashioned letters, can still reach me -- should they wish.

I'd love to stay in touch.

Best to you my friend -- your support and story has touched me. I won't forget it or you.



Fiddle1 said...

Sorry to see you go. I think of you often too. We decided to try for another early this year, and lost it. Thankfully, though, we got lucky again and are holding on so far...saw a heartbeat yesterday for the first time. It's a long road ahead, but your story has inspired me for these past three years. We in Alabama wish you all the best..and I'm glad our paths crossed in internet land. Bona fortuna!

AwkwardMoments said...

I will miss your post and updates. I am glad that life is treating you well. I wish you many more blessings

Coffeegrljp said...

Best of luck in your future endeavors. It's a bittersweet thing to see the ending of a blog and story like yours. I toy with concluding mine, but haven't found the courage or motivation to do so just yet...Here's to brighter days for all of us!

nikole said...

Please do keep me updated. I will miss your posts.

Your girls are so lovely!